MY BOGGY BLOG: find your way through the murk

Where Did I get All This Sh*%?

Life has been chaotic. I feel like I've been just riding the waves. I've had some dark days of depression and some great long cries, and then days like today where my mood is pretty good despite circumstances. I keep hoping that the depression and the feelings and the release from crying is a part of my emotional healing process.

And it's hard to know if the emotional chaos is happening because of the utter physical chaos, or environmental chaos. We are right now in the worst part of our remodeling project. It's been going on since mid-March, and every day the quality of life around here gets a bit more difficult. We are having several projects done. The main one is that we are taking our attic, where DH and I have had our bedroom for a dozen years, and we are having the whole attic redone. We are having a very nice bathroom put in (yes, we've been living with one bathroom and 3 kids for this whole time), an office space, and then our bedroom area is finally getting finished. It is being re-painted, getting actual window trim and base boards, and carpeting. We've been living with it all half-finished for a long time, and it will be nice to have it looking normal!

Since we are not into doing the little finishing projects ourselves, we are also having this work done: new front door and storm door, new storm door for the back, baseboards and shoe molding painted and installed in the kitchen (something that we never did from our previous kitchen remodel 6 years ago), and a laminate wood put in in the boys' room, which has had an unfinished floor.

So, there's just been all the chaos and drudgery of the whole remodel process-- people walking through your house, pounding and sawing, dust everywhere, having to move stuff out of the boys' room, and now our room. Not knowing where anything is anymore. And for me, tons of remodel decisions to make. Since DH doesn't care about a lot of it, the design elements, I get to pick out colors and fixtures and tile and carpet, etc.

This weekend is the worst. We have to have everythiing moved out from the attic. That means all my stuff from my office, hundreds of books that we have on shelves up there, our whole bedroom, everything. And it is 90 degrees this weekend, really unusual for Memorial Day weekend! We have a window A/C up there and some fans, but it is h-o-t. DH moved our bed down to the basement yesterday, and we'll be camping out there until next weekend.

And I keep going through my stuff, packing it in boxes and trying to throw a bunch away. But holy crap, there is a lot of sh*%! Too much! Sure it's a great chance to go through everything and clean up and get rid of stuff, blah blah blah. But, whine, do I have to do it today?

Just keep thinking about the finished bedroom and bathroom, just keep thinking about the finished bedroom and bathroom...