MY BOGGY BLOG: find your way through the murk

The Telescope of Time

This morning, I went to wake up younger DS, who is 13 and so long and gangly now. His face was all scrunched up in his sleep, and for a moment, it was like I was looking through the large lens of a telescope back in time, to the first time I saw him. He was a bundle wrapped up and laid in my arms and his face was dark and scrunched up as he gave frustrated-angry baby cries. I remember the wonder of that moment ("so this is who I've been carrying around all these months!") and being amused by his crankiness at being born while feeling sympathy too. I can see that face so clearly in my mind... and here it was back at me this morning.

There are moments like that as a parent, where a look your almost-grown child gives you will remind you of them at a littler time, or an object will send you back (like those red Little Tykes cars with the yellow roof; our neighbor has one in her front yard, and for how many years were two of those a staple in our own yard?). As they get older, sometimes it's easy to forget they were ever in need of diapers... I'm glad these glimpses come back to remind me.

And I can hardly believe that my twins will be 17 next month, will be seniors this year, and could possibly be leaving for college in a year (they might be staying home for college... nothing has been decided yet). They will have their last first-day of school in a few weeks! Wah, I think I'm going to be a basket-case this year! During the toddler years, nothing seemed to go very fast at all, but looking back, it has all gone by in a blur.

I'm sure you'll hear more from me on this subject in the near future!